Make It Happen~

For this year, as I grow older, these are the lists of what I want to make sure it happens this year...

Physically, I want...

1) To trim my eyebrow, so it won't be as thick as now. (But thick eyebrows are good to make me look stern, don't they?)

2) To update my closet more often. (which means, more shopping to be done woo hoo~!)

3) To accessorize more.(which also means more shopping)

Mentally, I want...

1) To read at least 10 fiction books by the end of this year to improve my English. (Kacang kan? :P)

2) To be more fluent in native languages like Melanau (from different dialects), Kenyah, and also Iban.

3) More stern, more courageous, and stand up for myself and my loved ones. That includes confidence. (Amen...)

Spiritually, I want...

1) To be more forgiving. (erm, did I type wrongly here? :P)

2) To be more attentive in Mass. ( FYI, it took me 3 Masses to attend in one weekend for me to finally get the Gospel huhuh...)

3) To read Bible more often... (Amen)


So, this is it. I hope I can make them all come true, each and everyday from this day onwards.

5 Things I HATE about him, him & him

It's ironic, but people who is easily annoyed is usually the annoying person himself.

=words of lamehood by lameleftygirl - inspired just this morning=

Am I being sarcastic to myself? Maybe. Maybe not.

 I am a person who can tolerate with a lot of people, and I am not proud of this because that means that I am not straightforward enough. Whenever I felt annoyed, I keep it to myself, secretly wishing and praying to God that this annoying person would change somehow. Or at least be more conscious of their behaviour.

But then, this kind of toleration I only applied when I am with girls.

But when it comes to guys, it's a different story. I don't really care, especially if the guy is a stranger.  Sometimes I am blunt when it comes to guys. Ice queen. The way I talk to guys and the way I talk to girls, if you noticed, it's a little different. With girls, my jokes are kinda filtered and lebih lemah lembut (except for when I joke with my sista) but when I joke with guys, I never hesitate to go to the extend of teasing them harshly or becoming more laser.

Maybe I have grudges against guys. Thanks to my high school experience. Truth to be told, I never really have guy friends during my high school except for three to four guy friends. That was why, my mother would tease me with even any little my guy friends that I had (even with some guys whom obviously are not into girls, ya know what I mean) because maybe she would be worried that I will stay single. Well, mama, see, now in university, I have guy friends, but still, I'm single hahah. The theory about the more guy friends you have, the more probability for prospective partner cannot be applied because the more guy friends you have, the more comfortable you are, and you don't look at them in romantic sort but in a family way. It's not in the quality or quantity, mama, it's in the chemistry, biology and most importantly, destiny.

Ok, maybe you will ask, why suddenly this topic? 

Well, I lost the 30 day blogging challenge, but there's one topic from the 30 day list that I think is worth sharing.

Which was 5 things that annoy me from the opposite sex..

It's not hard for me to list down these five things because:

1st, I have bad experience. Really bad experience with guys.

2nd, due to this experience, I guess I've become sexist sometimes. (keyword: SOMETIMES. Now guys, don't you even think of running away from me)

1) I HATE GUYS WHO...

is easily perasan. (how do we call perasan in English by the way?) Usually this kind of guy is so full of himself. "Yeah, I'm the best! I deserve the best girl!" Ptuih. Look at the mirror. This kind of guy, he felt great when pretty girls admire him, but when ugly girl admire him, he felt somewhat disgusted what the heck.

 I kinda had this experience back in high school. If you think I'm ugly now, I was uglier back then. I don't even look like a guy, I looked more like a bapok that time.

It was during my form 1. I was a really quiet person in class. Why? First of all, majority of my classmates speaks Mandarin. Me? Hokkien, English, and broken Mandarin. So instead of embarrassing myself of speaking broken Mandarin, I opted to remain silent in the class.

So there was this guy, who was my classmate for a very long time, he was very popular in this class. Everybody laughed at his jokes. I was one of them. The thing is, just because I laughed at his jokes, people around me thought that I liked him. (-_-") Please la... I was somewhat annoyed, why people would make that assumption about me, why people accused that I liked him when there were many others who laughed at his jokes. WTH! But then, I was a quiet girl, so I just didn't bother about it. But the problem was, from what I'd observed, he was bothered. I knew why. Maybe if I was a more popular, prettier and a smarter girl, he would not really be bothered about it. Instead, he would feel good about himself. But since I'm ugly, I'm unpopular, I'm *insert any cruel adjective inside*, he felt rather embarrassed instead of felt "wow, somebody admired me." He felt... disgusted.

All my high school life, I tried to not cross my path with him. I felt awkward. I wished I could just spill on his face and say "Sorry, you've misunderstood. I never had feelings for you. I just like your jokes and that's all."  But of course, I didn't do it. Instead of hating him (because majority people liked him), I hated myself. I hated myself for causing this misunderstanding.

For five years my high school life was shadowed by this hurtful experience and I didn't add him in facebook until now. So guys, moral of the story: kalau nak perasan ada orang minat kau pun, jangan nak memilih atau memandang rendah kat peminat kau. Cause belum tentu lagi orang tu minat kat KAU! PAHAM! Percuma ja high skul life aku kena ruined gara-gara lelaki perasan camni. HUH!

2) I HATE GUYS WHO...

is judgmental. Just because he's kononnya perfect, he wanted to lecture you on every single thing. *yawn* Like, oh, 'girls should not do this. Girls should not do that.' Yeah, I know, you are just being caring and protective, but why the word 'girls'? So if guys do that same thing, it's okay la? Double standard. Heh! And furthermore, this kind of guy will ask you stupid questions like 'Do you drink?' which means that they wanted to risik-risik whether you have the ciri-ciri isteri idaman. One thing boy, if you REALLY like someone, you would observe it on your own instead of interviewing the girl that you like. Girls like to be noticed, not to be interrogated. And one thing, just because someone drinks, does that make her a bad person? And one more thing, when you really liked or loved someone, why can't you handle some little imperfection about her? You're not all that perfect yourself! Enough said.

3) I HATE GUYS WHO...

is a sweet talker. This kind of guy made you blush, but  at the end of the day, sometimes you felt cheated. The way he acted later wasn't like what you've expected from what he'd shown you before. One word for them "Action speaks louder than words." If you really meant what you say, show it. Don't just make more promises that you cannot keep or keep up with.

4) I HATE GUYS WHO...

is a control freak. My former student, Mary (bukan nama sebenar) has this kind of boyfriend. Tell you what, Mary is just only 14, but her boyfriend wanted to control her every single move. For example, Mary wasn't allowed to hang out with her besties, what the heck. Tell you what, this same boyfriend was caught cheating with Mary's own friend last time. I hope I can influence my former student to dump this kind of guy.

5) I HATE GUYS WHO...

is desperate and horny.  Pleading us to be his girlfriends through the phones? (-_-") But apart all that, I'm still his friend cause he's special case. Not like all that other normal kind of guys mentioned above. HMMPH!

That's all for now. Reminiscing all these hurtful stuff just ruined my early morning. 

But maybe the timing's just right cause I will have to go for confession after this. 

Have a nice Thursday.

Will You Wed Me (in My Dream)?

Interframe: I guess I lost this 30 day blogging challenge, for delaying my 7th challenge, but still, I want to go on with it. Let it be. Lol. Guess what, I had weird dreams last night. First, I dreamed about my eldest sister, then about my lecturer's holidaying with her sister, then I dreamed about meeting a potential life partner whom my family chose for me in that dreams. What the heck was that?

 photo source: here

Dream wedding.

I had always imagined how my wedding could be, and yeah, I admit it, despite the singlelicious spirit I had in me, actually sometimes, I have a lot of  thoughts and ideas for my dream wedding. But the thing is, lol, I guess none of it can be practiced in real life. Hahah. I mean, where's the groom, first of all? 

To set the record straight, yeah, I love wedding, but at the same time, I am aware of the harsh reality of  a married life. So I always had dreams about wedding but not marriage itself. Meaning, I am not a fan of marriage. Cause I cannot imagine myself settling down yet. Hahah. Okay, back to dream wedding topic.

The thing that always remain the same in all of those ideas and dreams were the church bell ringing.  It's kind of romantic and blissful to hear the church bell ringing on a wedding. 

 photo source: here

 I would love to wear this Victorian wedding dress on my wedding because it is elegant and classic. 

Well, among all of the celebrity weddings, the wedding that resembles most to my dream wedding would be the one dream wedding of Giuliana and Bill Rancic. :') I would cry and thank God on my knees if I can have a wedding like that. I mean, it was grand, yet intimate where only their closest family and friends were there to celebrate. I want something like that. A grand, yet intimate wedding. Hmm..

So what do I need to have to make sure my dream wedding come true?

Beautiful wedding dress, check!

Yummy wedding cake, check!

Wedding photographer, check!

Lovely guests, check!

Wedding rings, check!

Don't forget, dream bridegroom, check!

OMG, it is such a headache to plan a wedding yourself!

How bout if I just replace the necessities with a good wedding planner? 

Yeah, a wedding planner with the same taste like mine and voila, I can just focus on enjoying myself on my wedding instead of worrying over all that stuffs!

photo source: here

I love this couple, Bill Rancic and Giuliana Rancic. 

Didn't they just have the wedding of the century?

My dream wedding would be one really expensive wedding because I want to keep the guests happy. What will make the guests happy more than a generous reception, right?

Just like Giuliana and Bill Rancic wedding, I would want a destination wedding.  They had it at Capri Island. I would want to have it at... erm... an island which have its own church or chapel, still undecided yet, but it has to be in Malaysia. But oh well, my wedding planner will pick them up for me and let me choose.

photo source: here

The chronology of my wedding will be like this.

Starts with wedding ceremony at church witnessed by close family and friends, followed by a tent built outside church for lunch reception. 

Then after that, during the night time, there will be a dinner reception at a favourite hotel, and we will have ballroom dancing for all the guests. 

The rest, my imaginary wedding planner will take care of it. If you want to get a clearer picture of my dream wedding, you can visit this link and see how Giuliana and Bill making a fantasy wedding a reality. :D

photo source

And they lived happily ever after! :D

PS: So, this marks the 7th day of the 30 days blogging challenge.

My dream wedding ( / )

Just Because It has the Power to Make Me Smile and Cry~

photo source: here (the puppy starring as Marley in 'Marley and Me')

Day 6:  a photo of an animal you'd love to keep as a pet ( / )

I have more than a dozen cats at home, but there's still one other animal that I would love to keep as a pet besides them, and as you can see, it's the cute animal you can see from above. 

 Actually, I was thinking of picking some exotic, beautiful animal, but I think, I want to keep a pet which needs me instead of me purposely buying it from expensive pet store. I would like to keep especially those stray animals which wander around the neighbourhood. 

If I get to see a stray puppy, I would definitely make it mine. 

There are reasons I chose dog or puppy, besides the facts that they are cute and they are man's best friend, I chose them because above all that, 

dog is a faithful animal. 

I am not making a joke, but even people born in the year of dog can make a faithful person. I experienced it first hand, perhaps it could be a coincidence, but still... it still does make a point right?

Before I die~

I want to...

photo source: here

...write and publish a book...

It could be a fiction, it could be a memoir, or anything, as long as not thesis or journal. :p

It's my life long dream, to write at least a book. I have so many dreams, this was one of it, and this was the only dream which remains with me while the other dreams come and go.

And I really hope I get to do this before I die.

Day 5:

  a picture of something I want to do before I die ( / )

;)

Day 4 Challenge...

 

Ada~!

Hawa~!

Step~!

PS: Pictures are organized according to their month of birth.. hihi

These are my favourite photographs of them because

1) I was with them that time

2) I took those pictures

3) They were happy

Guess what the challenge was? *wink2*

Day 04 challenge ( / )

DONE~!

My Imaginary Perfect First Date~

 First of all, how much perfect should a perfect date be? Fancy, expensive restaurant, a drive in a limo?

Na-ah~. These are not necessary.

One thing for sure, my idea of a perfect date would absolutely NOT be a blind date. Imagine, ice-breaking with a person you did not know during a date for two people. It's awkward. If the person doesn't have any chemistry with you, you're stuck with ONLY him for quite a long duration. I would not take that risk on a first date. If I want to meet new people, I would go for a gathering where I get to meet a lot of new people, where the more people, the less tense it would be.

But for my first date, let it be with somebody I already know and like (for example, Jericho Rosales *sigh*), and whom I would like to know better. That would be nice. Even if your date won't end up becoming your other half, at least, you get to spend some quality time with somebody you know right? A deeper friendship might just blossom through that experience. 

Ok, let's see about my ideas of a perfect first date. First, the time should be just right. Not too early, not too late. I would like the time to be from around 5 pm till 10 pm.. Now let's see where my imagination leads us to my idea of a perfect first date. 

Okay, so now I am imagining myself freshly showered, dressed in a pair of jeans and my favourite blouse, with a vintage sling bag. Why am I wearing jeans instead of dress? Hehe. That's because I want to do some outdoor activities, peeps.

Then, my date would arrive at 5 pm, and pick me up using a car. Not motorcycle or anything else but a car, cause we need to make a decision on where to go inside a car. If we were using a motorcycle, I have to shout to talk to him. So that's the rationale I choose car instead of motorcyle, ya, peeps. Hihi. Not because I want to be pampered okay~

Since it's still too early for dinner (5pm), we would walk around the nice street at Penang. Okay, perhaps the street that I would like to visit again is Little India. We would explore there together, take pictures and just to enjoy the street scenery. Maybe it will be noisy, but at least it break the tension between two people who are having their first date. That's the reason why I choose to go to place with many people on the first phase of my first date. We would have something to talk about, something to do with the atmosphere that we are in.

 picture source: here

After walking for around half an hour exploring the town, we would stop by a favourite cafe or restaurant, to purchase a takeaway food. My idea of a nice takeaway food will be pizza, since it's easier to be consumed. Then, after purchasing those takeaway food and drinks, we would drive to the beach. And yeah, we would walk around the beach, or cycle if possible, and bury something (like a bottle with message inside) inside the sand. Later, we would sit on the beach, watching sunset, while enjoying our dinner. After the sunset, we will take pictures and walk around the beach.

Next, instead of going to my favourite location again, we would head to his favourite location. Remember, a date is about give and take. And I just imagine that his favourite location would be hmmm... I'm clueless about guy's favourite location actually. How bout ice-skating? Yeah, that could be it. Then we would go to a complex and ice skate there. He would teach me how to skate cause I am clueless! (-_-")

Then we would have fun. Notice that I didn't include shopping and movies as the date activity? Hmm. It's because movies are more suitable for the upcoming dates but not for the first ones, and shopping is not a date. Remember lol. Unless you found a guy who likes to shop, then it will be an exception. 

For sure, I don't want my first date to be merely just an experience, but a memory which I would treasure and relate to years from now.

So this marks the third day of my blogging challenge --> My idea for perfect first date ( / ).. It's done, peeps.. 

A Movie With Millions of Messages

Do you believe in destiny?
A) Yes
B) No

If you watch this movie, you would answer A.

This is the one of those movies which got me engrossed from the start till the beginning. I mean, really engrossed, where I would observe the dialogues attentively.

Photo source: here

I was not interested in this movie at first, because I didn't know who Danny Boyle is, and who the casts were... until I knew that it won like 8 Oscars.I was like.. okay.. I gotta watch this movie. And I am glad I did (though I watched it from pirated DVD)

Slumdog Millionaire has a lot of underlying messages, from what I can observe.

-It shows that people usually rate others according to their background,
-how some people looked down on slum kids as if they have lower caste than animals,
-how people will fight for their beliefs and religion when fighting is against the teaching of their religion,
- how some cruel people used kids to gain profits
- and how school education and certification is so overrated, because above all, experience is the best teacher one could have.

Jamal Malik, the main character in this movie, could beat the lawyers and doctors to answer all these killer questions in tv programme 'Who Wants to be a Millionaire' just based on his experience.
It kinda shows that our experience is the best teacher because we will rarely forget our experience and we understand about something more through experiencing it.

So, if I ask you this question:

Is Slumdog Millionaire your favourite movie?

A)No

B) Maybe

C) Not sure

D) Yes. Always my favourite.

By the way, this marks the 2nd day of blogging challenge: My Favourite Movie ( / ). Checked.

My Answer: D

What's Your Favourite Song?

If somebody asked me about my favourite song, I will try to relate my favourite song with my favourite singers. Most of the times, my choice of favourite songs are affected by the singers. If the singer is someone that I like, then I will favour the song. But if it isn't, then I would be biased and try not to make the song my favourite. For example, I like 'Baby' by Justin Bieber but since I am not a big fan of his, I tried not to be so into his songs. (-_-") Oh no, I am such a discriminator.

If I were to list down my favourite songs, it is an easy job because I favour so many songs in this world. Yeah, I am a MTV freak and music makes my world go round, especially the song which can trigger me to dance (eg: hip hop song by Black Eyed Peas, Rihanna, and so on). But to pick one favourite song which is worth a post, and worth my whole attention, it is hard. Which song do I like the best?  

*THINKING MODE ON*

You know what? I would like to pick a song which is not sung by a singer I know. That means this song would be my real favourite song since I like the song not because of the singer, but  merely because of the song itself. And I noticed there is a song which I like this way. A song which triggers me to dance though I don't know what is the lyric and who the singer is. 

And that song is jeng jeng jeng... 

Tinggi Tinggi Gunung Kinabalu

 

During the camp or a gathering, whenever I hear this song, I felt like dancing.I don't even know the lyrics of this song except for the title part of the song.

For that, I will present to all of you the lyrics of this song. 

TINGGI TINGGI GUNUNG KINABALU
TINGGI LAGI SAYANG SAMA KAMU
BIRU BIRU HUJUNG KINABALU
TENGOK DARI JAUH HATI SAYA RINDU

KINABALU DEKAT DI KUNDASANG
BANYAK SAYUR BULIH PILIH PILIH
APA GUNA PERGI LUAR NEGERI
NAIK KINABALU HATI SAYA RINDU

SUMANDAK SUMANDAK PUN RAMAI MENUNGGU
MENARI NARI LENGGANG SUMAYAU
SEKALI MELIHAT MELEPAK KULITNYA
SAYANG JATUH CINTA

SAYANG SAYANG SAYA KINABALU
KAAMANTAN PESTA BULAN LIMA
SAYANG SAYANG KITA PERGI TAMU
JALAN TAMPARULI HATI SAYA RINDU

KINABALU DEKAT DI KUNDASANG
BANYAK SAYUR BULIH PILIH PILIH
APA GUNA PERGI LUAR NEGERI
NAIK KINABALU HATI SAYA RINDU

SUMANDAK SUMANDAK PUN RAMAI MENUNGGU
MENARI NARI LANGGANG SAMAYAU
SEKALI MELIHAT MELEPAK KULITNYA
SAYANG JATUH CINTA

SYANG SAYANG SAYA KINABALU
KAAMANTAN PESTA BULAN LIMA
SAYANG SAYANG KITA PERGI TAMU
JALAN TAMPARULI HATI SAYA RINDU

SAYANG SAYANG KITA PERGI TAMU
JALAN TAMPARULI HATI SAYA RINDU

I wish I could present you guys with the melody too but I can't post youtube here. And I don't know how to share music in a post. Hihihi.. 

So this post marks my first day of challenge in this blogging challenge. 

Day 1: My Favourite Song ---> Checked (/)

UPDATED: THANKS STEP FOR THE TIPS. SAYA SALUTE KAMU! HAHAH. KERANA DIA ANDA DAPAT DENGAR LAGU INI. ENJOY~!