Make It Happen~

For this year, as I grow older, these are the lists of what I want to make sure it happens this year...

Physically, I want...

1) To trim my eyebrow, so it won't be as thick as now. (But thick eyebrows are good to make me look stern, don't they?)

2) To update my closet more often. (which means, more shopping to be done woo hoo~!)

3) To accessorize more.(which also means more shopping)

Mentally, I want...

1) To read at least 10 fiction books by the end of this year to improve my English. (Kacang kan? :P)

2) To be more fluent in native languages like Melanau (from different dialects), Kenyah, and also Iban.

3) More stern, more courageous, and stand up for myself and my loved ones. That includes confidence. (Amen...)

Spiritually, I want...

1) To be more forgiving. (erm, did I type wrongly here? :P)

2) To be more attentive in Mass. ( FYI, it took me 3 Masses to attend in one weekend for me to finally get the Gospel huhuh...)

3) To read Bible more often... (Amen)


So, this is it. I hope I can make them all come true, each and everyday from this day onwards.

Tak Sempat Mengucapkan Selamat Tinggal... T_T

Hello. Kepada anda yang pernah ada akaun Friendster dan tidak pernah mendeletenya walaupun sudah lama tak log in ke sana, saya percaya, anda mesti memahami situasi saya sekarang. 

Yah, setelah lama mengaktifkan diri dalam facebook, saya sudah tidak lagi melawat laman friedster berkurun lamanya. Dan pada bulan September yang lepas, apabila saya cuba log masuk ke dalam laman friendster, saya telah dikejutkan dengan avatar baru dan semua gambar-gambar lama yang telah saya muat naik (upload) ke dalam friendster telah hilang semuanya.  T_T Habis semua gambar kenangan dengan kawan-kawan first year semua dah tak ada. Nasib la ada gambar yang sempat upload kat facebook. Kalau tak, langsung takde kenangan first year kat facebook.

Bukan itu je, blog friendster aku yang bertajuk Undiscoveredluv tu pun dah kena buang. Huwaaa... Walaupun blog itu tak aktif, tapi blog tu macam kenangan terindah masa lampau. Blog itu merupakan permulaan aku untuk mengekspresikan diri dalam alam maya.

Hmm, kenapa pula Friendster ni nak diubah jadi laman game online eh? Kenapa Tagged yang tak la famous sangat tu masih dapat bertahan sampai ke hari ini? Huwaaa~

Tagged account

Tak percaya, ini akaun Tagged saya yang masih aktif sampai sekarang walaupun saya jarang log masuk.

Gambar itu menerangkan betapa lama saya tidak mengupdate akaun ini. Hmmm. Tu la akibat terlampau banyak join laman online sosial (Hi-5, Tagged, Friendster, Facebook, Twitter, etc). (-_-")

Memory with former students.

Tapi... Yang penting gambar ni masih selamat. :)

Thank God.

My Happiest Moment

When was the last time you smiled - without expecting a smile in return,

laughed without caring about people around you, 

or expressed your excitement without letting other people's reaction affect what you felt?

 image grabbed from here

When was the last time you smile not for the camera, but your smile was a moment that was captured naturally by it?

image grabbed from here

When was the last time you externalized what you really felt inside?

One question that could sum all these questions up is,

when was the happiest moment of your life?

I will answer this post in a form of a photo, a solid proof of my happiest moment. That's the good thing about a photo, although it could not freeze the time, it could immortalize THE moment, and at least when we look back at that particular photo, we could reminisce that beautiful 10-20 seconds of happiness and bring back all that joyous feeling.

In my older post questioning about my happiest moment, I shared that it was hard for the adult me to find the happiest moment in my adult life, but when I flipped through the album of the childhood pictures, it was as easy as googling for me to spot my happy moments. Yes, childhood moments were the best. (who dare to disagree?) We were easy to please back then. We expressed what we felt, without holding back our feelings. We could laugh and cry whenever we felt like it.

Among all my childhood pictures, I chose this photo below to represent... 

MY HAPPIEST MOMENT!

They say a picture tells a thousand words. I agree, but let me complete the sentence 'a picture tells a thousand words, but it only has one truth', and the truth behind this picture is that the smile, the excitement, and all the expressions were genuine. Everyone was spontaneous. This picture is not about the photography technique, the artistic approach or camera angle whatsoever. It is all about 'capturing the moment'. A special moment for a 3-year-old birthday girl (which was of course, the little me), captured by my father with his old camera.

Whenever I looked at this picture, I could reminisce about what happened during that moment. From my facial expression, you can tell that I was overjoyed by the burning candles on my birthday cake. Isn't it blissful to be a kid? You felt as if you hit the jackpot just by looking at the burning candles on a birthday cake, anticipating for the moment to blow them. :)

 

But as they say the happiest moment only lasted for a very short time, yeah the saying was truly right. 

Because at the end of the happy birthday song, my happiest moment ended when this happened. 

(-_-")

Yeah. So much for my happy ending, huh. 

i have no property, no knowledge, no expensive gift to share but....

i have this prayer which was given by a dear best friend (you know who you are) to share with all of you. In times like these, prayer serves to comfort me and give me hope for better days.

Prayer to St Joseph

Oh, St. Joseph, whose protection is so great, so strong, 

so prompt before the throne of God. 

I place in you all my interest and desires. 

Oh, St. Joseph, do help me by your powerful intercession, 

and obtain for me from your divine Son and spiritual blessings, 

through Jesus Christ, our Lord. So that, having engaged 

here below your heavenly power, I may offer my thanksgiving 

and homage to the most loving of Fathers. Oh, St Joseph,

I never weary contemplating you and Jesus asleep in your arms, 

I dare not approach while He reposes near your heart. 

Press Him in my name and kiss His fine head for me and 

ask Him to return the kiss wen I draw my dying breath. 

St Joseph, patron of departing souls - Pray for us. 

 Image grabbed from here.

Say for nine mornings for anything you may desire. It has never known to fail, so be sure you really want what you ask.

How Old are You, Mentally?

"A person earns my respect due to their mental age, not their physical age."

=lameleftygirl (12th May 2011), Words of Lamehood=

Thus, I never expect people to respect me just because I am physically older than them. 

No.

I used to be a fan of Jojo, a popular singer who is physically 2 years younger than me. Then, someone (I forgot who was it but I do remember the comment) told me, "Why do you want to be her fan? She's younger than us, you know." 

By younger, the connotation there was to mean childish, and that 'older' people like us should go and admire singers who are older and legendary like Beyonce or Michael Jackson (God bless his soul) instead. Then I wondered, what is wrong with admiring a singer who is younger than you? 

Which brings me to a chain of new questions. 

What is wrong with agreeing to a younger person's view? 

What is wrong with accepting a younger person's suggestion?

What is wrong with listening to a younger people's advice?

Will it hurt our ego? Perhaps it would, but to hell with ego. 

If we care so much about ego, then we are still very much immature. 

(and yeah I am scolding myself now for being ego in certain things in life) 

Sometimes older people can be wrong too, despite all the 'asam garam kehidupan' that they/we/you/he/she (stop pointing fingers lol) tasted throughout their/our/your/his/her lives.

You can experience a lot , or in fact everything, but then if you never instill the lesson that you learned during that experience, then the experience did not mean a thing at all.

[ Fast fact: I am mentally physically and mentally 16 ;) ]