Friday, April 2, 2010

Having A Heavenly Night in Paradise...


It all started during the Chinese New Year holiday.. Marcela was asking me "What's the other theme that's not that skema for the CUS Nite?" from the Fajar's bedroom desk behind me. She was staying with me during the CNY holidays and it was a fun experience having a holiday roommate.. That time, the plan was to have the dinner held at Paradise Sandy Beach hotel. When Duke and Matt commented to us during our dinner together the night before, that the theme was quite skema, so Marce told me maybe we should change the theme. Marce said it should be a theme which will attract people and not make people feel that it's skema. Then she said "Mau mau jom fikir tema!" with an energetic smile.

Sometimes, she reminded me of the teenage version of my mother, just because she had that Chinese face that my mother has. So, it's no surprise that I acted more immature and she's the more matured one though she was younger than me for one year. So, I put my thinking cap on. Well, since it was initially a nature-loving theme and colourful theme, and it was held in Paradise Sandy Beach, I blurted out several names, and then suddenly I just jokingly said, "Maybe how bout A Night in Paradise? hahahah!" I was just joking when I felt it was not a joke anymore when Marce said "Ya kan? Best juga tema tu!" I looked at her with a big eyes. "Serious??" I mean, that theme just came out like a smoke and I never thought that it would be taken seriously.. "Ya..." She nodded. And I told her, "Urm, kita cuma guna tema tu kalau tak dapat fikirkan tema-tema lain yang best-bestlah.." I told that to her in case the theme will not be as attractive as we hoped it to be. But when the theme was finalised in Marce's paperwork for the event and it had a positive feedback from Matthlessa, then it's official. So the theme for CUS Nite 2010 is confirmed as "A Night In Paradise."

The preparation for the party was so much. Credits to Marce as the project manager, I couldn't imagine the hassles she went through in order to prepare for the event. And Juslin too, as the ajk hadiah, credits to her for preparing all those special things to us.. ;)

And not long before the event, Amanda, a sweet bestie of mine posted a necklace that she bought from China to me. Aww, thanks so much, Ada. I wore it to the party. Thanks!!

So on the historical day, 27th March 2010, Matthlessa, Man Lee, Claire and me went to Gotcha to have our hair done and we asked for a make-up service from my friend - Geraldine Tan, to do our make-up for us.

Me, doing my hair.. ;)


Claire's hair being done. She looked gorgeous even before the make-up!


Claire and me after doing our hair.


Man Lee while her make-up is being done..

The bus was literally waiting for us (from 6pm till 6.15 pm or later, OMG) because we took a long time to have our make up done. But in the end, thanks a lot, the bus driver was ok with it, and we made it safely to Cititel.


Esteranza and Claire Marie, the MC for the night.. ;)



Us, checking out ourselves in front of the mirror before the event started. ;)
Credits to Claire for this beautiful photo!



The not so paradisey stage made by the Cititel. Thanks to Claire for this photo..

Claire and Juslin, two pretty ladies.
Thanks to Mary for taking this photo. .

Performance from my seniors.. ahhaha.. XD


The four finalists for CUS Nite's Adam and Eve.. ;)

Claire, Natalia, Marce, me and Man Lee trying to capture this moment of glory.. hahaha.


Marce, me, Arthur, Man Lee and Juslin. Us performing during the performance by CUS excos 2009/2010.


Urm, yeap, still performing, cause the song was long..

The group photo of us.. ;)

Open floor dancing. hahah.. it was fun!

Hopefully the CUS NIte next year will be a blast! ;)

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

WHAT was, WHAT is, and WHATwill be, will be..


WHAT WAS....

Just a brief summary (let's yawn everyone~) of what happened last week.. Man, last week was hectic.. And I went for a weekend retreat after Fr Dominic invited me and Man Lee to join it.. Well, it all happened this way.. On Thursday night, while me and Man Lee was busy discussing for the Public (how i tempted to change it to pubic, gosh, i am waayyy so negative lately) Relation group (ass)ignment, I got a call from Fr Dominic. He was a youth chaplain for our Catholic Undergraduate Society, and he invited me and Man Lee to join this retreat. The fee for a retreat is actually expensive, usually range around RM60 to RM 70, but he offered to sponsor us. I was like, well, this is a golden opportunity, but I was (and still) waaayyyy to busy for that. But, for he was a very good priest and always come to our CUS gathering when I invited him, so maybe this is the chance for me repay his kindness to us. And perhaps there's a blessing in disguise while joining this retreat, who knows. So, voila, I joined the retreat on Friday evening, right after the CUS AGM that afternoon. And yeah, the retreat was really relaxing, inspiring and met new and old friends there.. ;)

Talking bout the AGM, here, I would like to congratulate all the new CUS excos - namely Helen Lee the president, Esteranza the vice president, Theodora Tang the secretary, Claire Su the assistant secretary, Peter Chin the treasurer, Elizabeth J.O. the AJK outreach, Claire Marie the AJK Publisiti, Marcela the AJK Kerohanian, Timothy and Veraneeta the AJK Muzik. Did I miss anybody? If yes, sorry ya. I am blogging in a rush. :"



Me (former assistant secretary) handing the newly-bought file to the new very pretty + fabulous + I'm proud of her, new assistant secretary, Claire Su.


Vow from new excos.. Hehe.. Err, currently I wasn't in here anymore cause my new post just lasts for roughly three hours.. Sorry I was too coward and didn't have the courage to take up the AJK Kerohanian post.. Marce will do a lot better than me.. Thanks Marce~! :')

Fr Dominic, our youth chaiplain, the cool father. hehe.

And yeah, thank God I already shopped for my shawl, shoes and clutch which I am going to wear to CUS Dinner on 27th March.. Woo hoo~! But they cost me a lot of money.. (-_-=)

WHAT IS...
Move on to this week. What am I doing now? I am blogging from PHS2 library after finishing 2 presentations in one day. And the presentations were bad. Haiz.. (-_-) Well, what do I expect? I wasn't preparing well, cause I was dividing my time between (ass)ignments and that's what I get. And what is bothering my mind right now? Of course it will still be the unfinished (ass)ignments which I have to submit this Friday. Guess how many assignments I have in my hand right now? Not one, not two, but 9 (spelled NINE) assignments!!!!! Gosh!!!!!! This explains why I seldom blog and what made me wanna cry was that when my blog was inactive, it was the time that the Nuffnang campaign was going on. And of course, I couldn't earn much.. Kuangx4. And by the way, mentioning about Nuffnang earning, well, I earned RM0.26 from the ads campaign so far. I was happy though it was a small amount (can only buy two sweets, or maybe four) because I've never earn anything from blogging before. So this is a new thing for me. XD

WHAT WILL BE..

I have a CUS Annual dinner coming soon (this Saturday, y'all) and at first I had a hard time because I didn't have any dress for the dinner but thanks to Matthlessa who came to the rescue, she lent me her dress which she never wore before. :') That was a really nice gesture.. So touched.. ;) And that left me to look for the clutch, shoes and shawl, which I spent almost RM80 on all of them. Haiz.. Dinner is always like that. And talking bout that, I think on this Saturday, maybe I will have my make up and a little hairdo at Gotcha Saloon (Sg Dua) for this party since my last year's very talented free make up artist + make up provider (Mellisa Reeve) who had done make up for me cannot do the make up together for this year because she, my sis and her gang will be having a PIBG meeting this Saturday (of all the day, boo PIBG!!).. So, I will join my senior, Man Lee to dress up at Gotcha saloon. And it will roughly cost me RM40 for both make up and hairdo.

I hope all these pimples will go away soon. Huhu.


CUS Nite, Cititel, here I come.. ;D



Friday, March 12, 2010

It's just hard to satisfy everyone when you're feeling empty inside....

This busy-ness is making me feel empty..

I wanted to help, but I can't even help myself..

Oh, great, it just made me look more idiotic and selfish than usual..

If I can buy time with my life, I would...

Life is empty without enough time to take back and relax...

What's the use of a long life if it's just focused on getting everything done?

And worries?

Worries are sign of selfishness.

Selfish about what will happen to ME tomorrow?

Why should I worry about ME??

Worried that I might be HATED?

Worried that people might MISUNDERSTAND me?

Whatever that is, I don't wanna care anymore..

Whatever people think about me, whether I'm selfish, whether I'm weak,
whether I'm idiotic, that's not gonna matter to me anymore...

Because they should be worried about what I think about them too..

I should just worry about where I go when I die...

I know I don't deserve to go to HEAVEN...

But at least let me feel the forgiveness in purgatory...

Indeed, this season of lent is full of temptations for me..

Amen.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Jerat Valentine Day?


Semasa aku menaiki anak tangga di bangunan hostelku dengan innocentnya, lalulah aku di bahagian melekat poster dan iklan - dan sekeping poster yang dilekat menarik perhatianku. Tajuk poster berikut berbunyi begini "JERAT VALENTINE DAY" dan diikuti dengan bermacam-macam deskripsi "Valentine menjahanamkan negara, dll." Selepas membaca poster tersebut, aku tak rasa innocent lagi.. Rasa nak memaki hamun pun ada. Sedih pun ada. Rasa nak ketawa pun ada. Kenapa benda yang innocent macam Valentine Day dikaitkan dengan anasir-anasir negatif seperti kes-kes sosial mengandung entah apalagi benda? One thing for sure, Valentine Day bukan hari mengawan, sayang. Kenapa tiba-tiba pada masa ini disamakan dengan hari maksiat, disamakan dengan hari berzina seolah-olah pada hari Valentine semua orang dah tak boleh kawal nafsu dan secara automatiknya akan melakukan sesuatu yang akan mencemarkan maruah sendiri?

Satu benda yang ingin aku ketengahkan - Jangan samakan Valentine day dengan musim mengawan binatang. Jika ada perkara maksiat yang dilakukan pada hari tersebut, itu merupakan salah individu dan pasangan tersebut sendiri. Dan siapa kata maksiat hanya dilakukan pada hari Valentine? Setahu saya, maksiat boleh dilakukan pada bila-bila sahaja, tak kira hari tersebut hari yang baik ataupun tak baik. Jadi generalisasi bahawa Valentine's Day merupakan jerat untuk maksiat adalah sangat tidak berasas. Dan adalah sangat keterlaluan. Satu sifat prejudis yang dilemparkan tanpa memikirkan perasaan orang yang menyambutnya. Bak kata pepatah "tak pandai menari, katakan lantai jongkang jongkit" maka dalam konteks ini, kepada sesiapa yang mengatakan Valentine Day membawa maksiat, saya cipta peribahasa ini untuk anda "Tak pandai jaga diri, salahkan hari bawa maksiat!" Jangan salahkan hari Valentine atas maksiat yang berlaku tetapi salahkanlah orang yang melakukan maksiat tersebut kerana tidak pandai mengawal nafsu dan tidak pandai menggunakan akal yang telah dikurniakan kepada mereka.

Saya bukannya ingin memaksa anda untuk menyambut Valentine, hahah, saya tidak pernah menyambutnya selama ini kerana diri ini masih ahem, single, tapi saya cuma tidak ingin anda mengejinya. Ok? Jika anda tak sambut, tak apa, cuma jangan mengeji hari tersebut, kerana mungkin perayaan ini adalah satu perayaan yang bermakna kepada sesetengah masyarakat. Bayangkanlah perasaan mereka jika hari ini dikaitkan dengan perbuatan hina sedangkan tidak terlintas di fikiran mereka untuk melakukannya! Bayangkanlah jika sesetengah pasangan perlu berasa malu kerana menyambut Valentine's day walaupun bagi mereka, masa Valentine itu mereka sekadar untuk menunjukkan rasa kasih sayang terhadap satu sama lain tanpa mempunyai niat tersembunyi.

Kita di Malaysia digalakkan untuk menghormati perayaan orang lain walaupun tidak menyambutnya, dan adalah satu sifat hipokrit untuk mengucapkan "Selamat hari Tahun Baru Cina, Selamat Hari Thaipusam, etc" sesama sendiri walaupun tidak menyambutnya dan apabila tibanya hari Valentine, seolah-olah anda akan diperlihatkan seperti menyokong maksiat jika mengucapkan perkataan "Selamat Hari Valentine."

Adakah hanya disebabkan Hari Valentine bersifat kebaratan kita menentangnya? Bukankah kita tidak digalakkan untuk bersifat RACIST kerana hidup dalam kalangan penduduk berbilang kaum? Tetapi apabila kita mengeji pihak Barat terutamanya penduduk Amerika, kita tidak dikatakan RACIST? Aku tak sedar yang ada konteks dan kelas-kelas tertentu dalam menyifatkan satu definisi. Aku tak tahu yang ada kelas-kelas subjektif untuk menyifatkan seseorang sebagai racist ataupun tidak, baik ataupun tidak, kerana pada hemat aku, racist adalah objektif dan tidak mengira dalam apa juga konteks. Jika anda anti-Barat, anda adalah racist walaupun anda baik dengan kaum-kaum lain di Malaysia. Kenapa? Kerana fakta menyatakan orang putih adalah satu bangsa juga. Jadi, jika anda anti mereka, maaf untuk memaklumkan kepada anda realitinya bahawa anda seorang yang RACIST!

Kesimpulannya, maksiat tidak memilih masa atau waktu. Dan Valentine's day adalah satu perayaan yang innocent tanpa agenda tertentu melainkan untuk menyambut kasih sayang antara pasangan kekasih, dan kini dapat disambut antara sahabat handai. Dan satu perkara lagi, jika anda benar-benar sayangkan seseorang, hormatilah maruah pasangan anda dan jangan gunakan pasangan anda sebagai medium untuk melepaskan nafsu anda.

Terakhir tetapi bukan yang paling kurang,

SELAMAT TAHUN BARU CINA DAN SELAMAT HARI VALENTINE in advance!!


Prejudice is sooo yesterday!!

PEACE!

;)




Saturday, January 30, 2010

Friday - My Fright Day!

[Interframe: Have you ever experienced that moment where there's too many things to do at one time, and there's one time you find yourself clueless to do something with your time? Argh, I always experience this... ]

Gosh, I wish I could tell back the things I had experienced on Friday in full details. So many things to do, and no, I am not saying this because I was involved in Thaipusam celebration, but it was because there were too many things - which has nothing to do at all with Thaipusam - cramped on this one day. By the way, I wanna wish a belated Thaipusam to those who were celebrating it.. :D

Friday started with a morning class at 8 am. I woke up around 6.50 am, and I slept around 1.30 am the night before (or precisely that morning). I walked to the lecture hall with my hostel mate/friend - Amirah who happened to have the sleepy morning sindrom like me. The lecture was on one of my minor subjects - Public Relation- and I was yawning the whole hours of the class. After the class, I went back to hostel with Amirah, took my shower (yes, I haven't shower before class, guilty...) and went to buy some kuih with her. After that, I had to prepare myself for the CUS weekly gathering that was going to happen at 12.30 pm. The time was 11.00 am and I was already on my way to the venue for the gathering, which was held at one of the tutorial classes in USM.

Imagine me carrying the plastic full of t-shirts, a guitar, and my own bag. Lol. I looked like one of the overload backpackers. The only difference was that I was wearing a sling bag instead of a backpack. I arrived around 11.15 am at the gathering venue but nobody has arrived yet. So I prepared the attendant list, and after that, trying to read the novel that my lecturer had assigned us to read. I was restless. It was already 11.35 am - I had to go to USM Sungai Dua gate
to escort the priest (Fr Dominic) who was going to be the speaker of the day. So I left my things at the room and messaged my friend to let her know that I left the things at the room without attendance, because I had to go to escort Fr.

So I finally arrived at USM Sungai Dua Gate before 12 pm. I was relieved. So I sat on the bench and continued with my novel.

A few minutes later, Fr Dominic arrived in his proton Gen 2, with two students, or precisely, two high school leavers. Actually, (thanks to my blurness) I thought I was looking at the wrong car - I thought it was a family driving the same car like Fr Dominic's. Lol. And when I finally seated myself at the backseat of Fr Dominic's car, just beside the female student, whom I later learned that her name was Faith (bukan nama sebenar) and the boy seated in front was Edward (bukan nama sebenar), I became comfortable. They were nice friendly people. Faith was very matured in thinking for her age, Edward was cynical and like to tease Fr Dominic. I showed the way to the venue (with a few errors at first, lol, for not informing Fr earlier about which road to turn to), then we finally arrived at the venue (BT150).

Then while preparing for the gathering, suddenly, I got an unfamiliar number calling me. Surprisingly, it was from Kavitha (bukan nama sebenar), one of my coursemates. She told me that she needed a favour from me - which was to take the novels from Dr R's room to distribute to the students who ordered the books because she was going back to her home for Thaipusam, and Dr R was going to have an important meeting at around 2.30 pm later. So, I was torn because I needed to be there for the gathering's preparation but yet I had to be at somewhere else. So I walked fast to the C11 building from bt150, and on the way, a girl said 'Hi' and waved at me, but I couldn't recall who she was, because I never met her before, so in return, I smiled at back at her. Finally, I met Dr R at this room. Dr R passed to me 10 novels, and told me he had an important meeting at around 2.30 later, so that was why he would not be available. He thanked me, and I flew off with 10 novels (in a paperbag) with me.

On the way out of the lecturer's office building, I saw a familiar face at the SK bus stop, Jasper! Jasper was one of the members in my CUS club, but he rarely shows up these days. I heard that he was busy, I waved at him, had no time to talk with him since he was on the phone and I was on the rush. Inside my heart, I was quite disappointed, why were there just a few people present for our weekly gathering though we had promoted it half dead. We had printed, photostated, and pasted the posters around campus, we had sms-ed each of the members, but just a few of them turned up. I knew and was aware that most of them were busy (most of the seniors had practical and lab, but what about the juniors?), but I was more disappointed for those who chose to hang out at other places than to gather there with us. And yes, I really felt it because I used to be that person, who purposely came late for CUS gathering and trying hard to find great excuse to be absent for the gathering just because I didn't feel the sense of belonging. The only thing that tied me down to CUS during my first year was my sister and her friends. They were really supportive of CUS activities, and I will feel great guilt if I didn't join the gathering because I know that was the time I could spend some quality time with them. Though I felt reluctant to join the gathering at first, I finally got over it and the sense of belonging gradually grew. So that was why I tried my best to entertain most of the newcomers just to motivate them to come to the gathering once I joined the exco team. I threw away my used-to-be-shy attitude, my ego, and my insecurities and try to speak to all of them, though I might humiliate myself at the end. It's worth to be humiliated to make somebody else be comfortable. Okay, I guess I had digressed from my actual purpose to tell my story briefly on this day.

After that, I arrived at bt 150 with ten novels with me. Fr Dominic was going to teach us the right way to read the bible. He taught us that we had to consider the context, the underlying messages and not to take the all the words in the bible literally, some of them had contextual meaning. We had to consider the era of the writers and so on in reading the bible. After the gathering, I joined Fr Dominic, Faith and Edward to eat our lunch, and Fr Dominic, as usual, was the one who was going sponsor us. I was quite guilty to let Fr sponsor my lunch when it was his birthday last week (we didn't do anything for him, ahem) and I wasn't his assistant. At least, Faith and Edward did something for him, but me, what had I done other than asking for Fr's favour? Hmm... But since Fr was always generous and all that, the sense of guilty lessen. Lol.

We ate at Bali Bali since Red House had run out of food, and there, we met Juslin, Arthur, Helen, Elizabeth and Peter. We joined their table and had conversation. Suddenly, my phone rang and it was from a classmate of Dr R's class. It was Yeon Yoo (bukan nama sebenar), looking for me to take the novels. I told her I was not at USM at the moment, I was at Bali Bali, so we will meet at USM gate. So when we finally finished our lunch (I noticed Fr Dom didn't finish his vegetables, heheh), I asked Fr Dom to send me to the USM Sg Dua gate instead of my hostel since I will meet someone there, I told them. So Edward and Fr Dom teased me saying that "Wow, meet someone," Edward teased and Fr Dominic said "Wow, Maureen, got so much connections huh?" I just smiled helplessly and said "No lah." I took the books and guitar from Fr Dom's car and sat at the bench where I waited for Fr earlier. If they only knew I meet these people out of business and not personal meeting. Hehehe. Then, Yeon Yoo (bukan nama sebenar), who happened to be a Korean girl, arrived with two helpful Malay girls, who also shared the same class with me. Yeon Yoo happened to be the girl William (bukan nama sebenar) told me earlier, a Catholic Korean girl who was looking for the way to the church. So I invited her to join me with the other CUS members to go to church together on the upcoming Saturdays.

Then I gave the novel to Joana (bukan nama sebenar) and finally to a guy from China. I need much more effort to give the novels to the China guy since he didn't know where is Sungai Dua, and when I told him it's near the mosque, he didn't know what a mosque is through the phone. Did I pronounced "mosque" wrongly, I wondered."Urm, what is mosque?" He asked me and I answered "It's a place where the Muslims pray. Green colour. Urm, how about we meet at the library, you know where it is right?" Imagine me walking under the hot sun to the library as fast as I could. When I arrived there, I met Pink (bukan nama sebenar) who just came back from her bible study gathering. Then when I finally arrived in front of the library, I was asked to describe my appearance by the China guy. I told him I am the girl with black shirt, with curly2 hair, and a green bag. To make it easier, he asked me through the phone "Are you Malay or Chinese?" Then I was hesitant to answer this question. It's because yes, I am a Chinese but I don't look like one. So to be safe, I told him "I am Chinese, but I look like Malay," half laughing. Then he answered, " I think I know who you are already."Then I just shrugged and waited for him to come. I asked him to help his other four China friends to take their novels too, which left me with only one novel. So I made my move to go back to my hostel. Along the DK foyer, I heard someone called me.

"Mau!" I turned and it was Mike (bukan nama sebenar) my Sarawakian junior from CUS. I replied by giving him a scare tone "Hah, sik pergi CUS gathering tadi!!" which mean, "Hoh, you didn't go for CUS gathering." He smiled hesitantly and said there was no bus, so he couldn't make it, and furthermore, he had discussion. So I let him off the hook. Just a few steps away, my friend Pizal (nama sebenar ni, malas la nak reka nama lagi) was at the stall, promoting the "Lu Fikirlah Sendiri" movie premiere. She asked me to help spread the words, and we kept talking about our assignments for our script-writing paper. I hadn't even start, and my group hadn't even start our first meeting. Haiz.. After a few minutes of conversation, I made my way to the top floor of Fajar and landed on my bed.

When I awoke, it was already 7 something in the evening. I've had lunch, so I guess I would skip dinner that night.

(Total of words: More than a 1000 words)